maggie b and the poop deck
Yo, this is my journal. Oy vey, etc.

Keep two truths in your pocket and take them out according to the need of the moment. Let one be: "For my sake the world was created." And the other: "I am dust and ashes."
-- Rabbi Simcha Bunam

songs what i listened to recently, cap'n
patd: bden says hell whee!
Wow, people on lol_meme and reflesh. Thanks for bringing it back to 2008, gals! Ain't nothing so satisfying as rehashing old gossip and talking shit about people on the internet, right? There is such disgusting irony in you anonymous bitches calling her a mean girl.

I have a question. Has there ever been a time when someone you cared about had their feelings hurt by someone else? I mean, seriously, it sounds like a dumb question, but that's happened to you, hasn't it? And the person you cared about, they weren't perfect, but they didn't deserve to be made to feel so bad about themselves, right? No, really, have you ever tried to comfort someone who was crying because nasty, untrue things were said about them? Has that ever happened to you, feeling helpless, trying to make them feel better?

I mean, jesus. She's a real fucking person. She questions her self-worth, just like you. She makes silly faces, just like you. She feels bad when people believe horrible lies about her, and so do I, and so would you. Give the anonymous bullshit a rest. Put your names to the awful things you say and own your opinions, or keep your opinions in more private forums where people can't be hurt by them. Your bullying is bullshit. Fucking own up to what you say, or don't say it.
mcr: fromantics on tour
This Wednesday, my dear friend sandwich_armada is leaving the sweet shores of the United States and is moving to the green and mildly damp land of the United Kingdom. Although I have plans to visit her very soon, and although she will no doubt still be present online, I'm going to miss her so, so much.

Laura, I remember the time you called after me, somewhat hopelessly, "but Jessa, you already HAVE a picture with William Beckett!" ♥ ♥

Please leave a fond memory or goodbye-and-good-luck wish for Laura here in this post, and make the girl feel loved before she takes off!

maybe a kiss from tyra's prince charming

miss jay <3 ryro
You know, some reality shows are crap. But some reality shows are fun!

Poll #1262525 reality shows

Which of these reality shows have you watched and enjoyed (to some extent)?

American Idol
Project Runway
America's Next Top Model
Flava of Love
I Love New York
Rock of Love
Tila Tequila's A Shot At Love
I Love Money

eta: omg, what's wrong with you people? Rock of Love and I Love Money ARE THE BEST SHOWS OUT THERE! Seriously! They're so deliciously shameless!

In other Brendon news, I ran across this and quite liked it. Brendon birthday gsf spanking! \o/ Check it, Juliet!

let's all be our best; next up, who's gay?

patd: to be dreamt of to be sought
I'm bad at replying to comments; for this, I apologize.

From zillahseye:
Pick a fandom I know (xf, qaf, btvs, ats, lotrips, hp, sga, sg1, spn, sfu, bsg, pop, bandom, how come those don't have fun acronyms?) and I will tell you who I would:

1. bake cupcakes for:
2. trust with the keys to my car:
3. put thumbtacks on their chair:
4. have a crush on:
5. pack up and leave if they moved next door:
6. vote for President Prime Minister:
7. pick as my partner in a buddy movie:
8. pair up:
9. vote off the island and into the volcano:
10. wheedle into fixing my MP3 player:

If you like the Brendon/Ryan, I recommend scooting over to cyclogenesis's new fic, Like A Game, because it's good!
fob: l'chaim motherfuckers
Tonight, I went to see Fall Out Boy perform live and free at the Santa Monica Pier. Although sandwich_armada and koncupiscence were sorely missed, I had a magical time with Amanda and Frances - I missed hanging out with those girls! They were my 2006-2007 concert partners in crime, and now that Amanda's back in LA for good, I anticipate much revival. Tonight, we ate mad shrimp at Bubba Gump (I tried cracking lobster and it went all over the place /o\) and drank a million drinks, and then went on the Ferris wheel, and then played Whack-A-Mole. I won Whack-A-Mole, but Frances and I were playing against this kid, and I gave him my stuffed silver Sonic the Hedgehog prize, because you know what? I'm just that kind of person.

Then, Fall Out Boy!!! Ugh ugh, I hadn't seen them since December, and I missed them, I missed them so much! Joe's fro was huge and crazy and long and gorgeous, but no facial hair! Pete's emo swoop was in full effect beneath his purple American Apparel hoodie. Andy's hair was long too, and he was shirtless. Patrick was - did you know I want to marry Patrick Stump? I want to marry him and bear his children and cook him dinner. I'm jealous of his girlfriend because she gets to be with Patrick Stump. He looked and sounded amazing. He's Patrick Stump! He wore a white fedora and a white shirt under a vest with a tie. Oh, snazzy Patrick. *wiggles ring finger*

They played all singles, opening with Sugar and closing with Saturday (okay, so that wasn't a single), and in between was Arms Race, 16 Candles, Grand Theft Autumn, Dance Dance, I'm Like A Lawyer, Take Over The Break's Over, etc - plus:

Pete: So we've got some good friends who are over in Europe right now, and they're bummed that we get to play on a beach right now, so this is for them.
Patrick: [plays I Write Sins and sings the first bit]

God, I love when they cover I Write Sins! ♥ They also did their Akon-into-R. Kelly cover, which was hilarious, because Pete pulled out the "Patrick, nobody wants to see us together" and then Patrick played random chords for like a minute, and Pete was like "uh, dude?" and Patrick was like "Pete doesn't respect the fact that I haven't played this for seven months" and Pete was like "Dude, I respect how you look in that hat, I want to see us together, c'mon." And then playing! Pete rested his head on Patrick's shoulder like 4 distinct times, and went to his knees for Patrick at some point.

God, Fall Out Boy. You soothe my battered soul and are still my favorite band. ♥ ♥ ♥ I hope you're seeing The Dark Knight tonight!

(1 ambien makes me wake up at 6am; 2 makes me sleep til 9. is the answer 1.5 pills?)

don't fear him, baby! it's just justin!

why it's almost like being in love
Oh, hello there.

Poll #1221390 mr jt now won't you talk to me

What's your favorite Justin Timberlake incarnation?

prepubescent MMC Justin
bleached hair German Justin
bleached hair N The Mix Justin
fro'ed out NSA Justin
shaved head Celebrity Justin
short curls Justified Justin
semi-shaved head FutureSex/LoveSounds Justin
I hate Justin Timberlake

geez ♥

Mar. 22nd, 2008

happy pride how's it going?
Talk to me, anyone who's online, any topic of conversation or fic or anything, talk to me, anything at all

so is your blank stare in lieu of this song

patd: to be dreamt of to be sought
from renne:
01. Pick a character, pairing, or fandom you like.
02. Turn on your music player and put it on random/shuffle.
03. Write a ficlet related to each song that plays. You only have the time frame of the song to finish the ficlet; you start when the song starts, and stop when it's over. No lingering afterwards!
04. Do ten of these, then post them.

Oh well, I seem to have forgotten how to write convincing Ryan/Brendon.Collapse )

Feb. 9th, 2008

why it's almost like being in love
I just spent 4 hours entering 8 months of checking account transactions and I entered them 100% ACCURATELY. I am SO AMAZING!

zhai'helleva, motherfuckers!

fob: music's got me feeling so free
I won joyfulseeker in a Sweet Charity auction a while back, and after hemming and hawing and false starts, she's going to write a Heralds of Valdemar bandslash au! \o/\o/\o/

The Heralds of Valdemar series is a young adult series written by Mercedes Lackey, and boy oh boy do those books have everything. Talking horses! Psychic powers for young, troubled teens! Flamboyant gay magicians! Gryphons! Sex-crazed cat-girls! Oh man, I'm misting up just thinking about it.

As much as they may sound like (and be?) badfic, these books were incredibly important and formative to me and millions of maturing middle-school-aged girls just like me - and now, whether you've read them before or never read them at all, joyfulseeker and I would like to extend an open invitation to join companionz, our book club community for this series!

The info's in the profile, but essentially, joyfulseeker and I are going to try to get through one book a week. We're going to talk about the first half of the book on Thursdays and the last half of the book on Mondays, in open discussion posts, so that we may commune! Share! And feed the baby au sprouts growing in the garden of joyfulseeker's mind. It's a no-pressure situation!

William Beckett the Hawkbrother! Frank's untrained gift is Firestarting! Herald Pete and his Herald-Trainee Ryan! What do you say? Say yes! Go buy the first trilogy (Arrows of the Queen, Arrow's Flight, Arrow's Fall, all by Mercedes Lackey) and join us!

barbarism is vastly underrated
{{everyone}}, really, you know? Thank you, thank you, for being you.

Tomorrow is SUPER TUESDAY, and I'm voting yes on all the Native American casino gaming propositions. If your Presidential primary is tomorrow, will you won't you will you won't you will you join the dance*?:

SUPER TUESDAY primary - only vote here if your Presidential primary is tomorrow

I'll decide sometime between now and tomorrow
I'm not voting Democratic

I don't vote absentee (although it's cool if you do). I like elections and primaries and presidential seasons, and feeling like this time next year, we're going to have a Democrat in office. That makes me feel pretty good.

*This always, always makes me think of Batman: The Animated Series, and the Mad Hatter. He was so sad, and so creepy. Like Mikey Way!

If I'm not broke by the time Panic tour tickets and airfares and moving expenses and parking tickets are attended to, I'm pretty stoked on the upcoming Jimmy Eat World/Paramore tour.

lord help me, i can't change

patd: ryan back to basics
Finding zen in buying Panic tickets is roughly equivalent to realizing yet again that I'm going to pay a lot of money to see a band I really like. Okay. *flexes around stress like Keanu Reeves flexing around the digestion of Hugo Weaving* (Ah, the unappetizing visual simile!)

I've been listening to the legendary 95.5 KLOS a lot lately, thirsty for classic rock, and here's a question that struck me in the car this morning:

The following is true regarding Ryan Ross and Lynyrd Skynyrd's "Free Bird"

If you shouted "FREE BIRD" at the end of a Panic concert, Ryan Ross would get the reference, but wouldn't know the song.
If you shouted "FREE BIRD" after a Panic concert, Ryan Ross would absolutely be able to play the song - if he felt like it.
If you played the solo from "Free Bird" for Ryan Ross, he would instantly recognize it as the music playing while Jenny stood on the ledge and attemped to jump in Forest Gump.

A final thought on Brendon's shirt from the video shoot: it can't be long now.

ETA: Ooh, you know, to that end, is "Free Bird" even relevant as an encore anymore? (Was it ever, was it always just a joke?) What song do you think bands these days absolutely OUGHT to know, as a last-ditch encore?
patd: to be dreamt of to be sought
I woke up this morning and spent a lot of time looking at the pictures from the Pretty. Odd. video shoot, and I have five things to say.Collapse )

Also, I don't think I ever said how much I like the way Brendon sings "world" in the HCT press 9ita. I like how he sings it! I like his control that whole song. I'm excited about the album, fuck, have I mentioned that ever? Did I need to? If NME wasn't just being hyperbolically controversial, then I'm going to really love it.

the papers want to know whose shirt you wear

office: bears beets battlestar galactica
Friday! Which doesn't mean a whole lot, since I have to do some work every weekend. And now, the bright and shiny addition of homework, which entails reading for Astronomy and writing a 500-700 word scene for Narrative Writing, in which we're supposed to show who our character is without telling who our character is. *pumps up the jam*

Last night was the worst sort of rainy night here in Southern California, relentless and pounding and accompanied by a tornado watch (?), but today in Santa Monica, it's merely overcast and chilly.

Saving the navel-gazing about the themes of my favorite movies and sexual identity, here are ten sweet covers, taken from the good pages of Cover Lay Down, a fab cover blog I ran across the other day:
30 Seconds to Mars - Stronger (orig. Kanye West)
Tom Jones - I Bet You Look Good On The Dancefloor (orig. Arctic Monkeys)
Dan Rossen (of Grizzly Bear) - Graceland (orig. Paul Simon)
Hot Chip - Sexual Healing (orig. Marvin Gaye)
Jens Lekman - You Can Call Me Al (orig. Paul Simon)
Natalie Merchant - Space Oddity (orig. David Bowie)
The Puppini Sisters - Crazy in Love (orig. Beyonce)
Peter Bjorn and John - Me and Julio Down by the Schoolyard (orig. Paul Simon)
Colin Meloy - Everyday is like Sunday (orig. Morrissey)
Emiliana Torrini - The Sound of Silence (orig. Simon & Garfunkel)


Jan. 22nd, 2008

profound as fuck
As the days get busier, so must the friendslist necessarily (temporarily?) shrink. Apologies, apologies, feel free to respond in kind if you wish.
kick you in the p33n
My boss is back in town, and man, did I not have everything pulled together for him. School starts tomorrow, and I'm not comfortable with that. I'm also tired and frustrated with dealing with this loser of a used refrigerator dealer, who keeps dicking me around! (He'll deliver it on Saturday! No, it's not ready, he'll deliver it on Sunday! Whoops, he forgot! He'll deliver it on Monday! No, it's still not ready! He'll deliver it on Tuesday and then I will KICK HIM IN THE BALLS and not tip him at all.)

However, reassuring girlfriends and nice television marathoners are keeping me sane; Candy and I finished season 3 of Buffy on Sunday, which is a fuckload of achievement. We're definitely going to finish going through the series by the time I'm thirty! Aww, Buffy. She likes to think of it as graduation.

Now, more work, some wine, some hot olives, and fuck you with medical instruments patd don't give me coronary infarctions like that! >:|


patd: studying about that good old way
You know what bothers me more than Panic dropping the exclamation point? The shift from "At" to "at." I realize that with the exclamation point it was Panic At the Disco, but I think Panic at the Disco looks silly, so I'm just going to keep on with Panic At The Disco. I notice a trend of Panic(!), which I do not follow. Do you follow it?

Are you typing it Panic(!)?

No, but I will now, because that's a clever alternative
Jensen Ackles

it's like the beatles threw up!

beep beep beep beep yeah no
two pictures of CATS!Collapse )

Damn. How's your Friday night? My weekend is shaping up to be low-key, and I'm suspiciously comfortable with the new refrigerator being the highlight.

let's just say double-headed dildo

devourer of worlds and nipples
from the trusty gossip blog:

Showing that he is not afraid to go where Marilyn Manson has been before, Jeremy Piven has been acting like a school kid with a gold star to take home to mommy. It seems that the great actor and prime jackass has a little thing for Dita von Teese. Must have seen some of her new porn photos that have been passed around. If you haven't seen them I will spare you the actual photos. Lets just say that she and another woman are sharing some quality time with a tool they are using simultaneously.

. . . I haven't seen the new porn photos. Can someone show me the new porn photos? DON'T SPARE ME THE DITA PORN PHOTOS, FOR THE LOVE OF GOD!

eta: \o/ Spanish Playboy spread, porn pictures, porn video! I feel so behind the times /o\

Jan. 16th, 2008

patd: brendon's like what uggh
OH, I TOLD people Brendon wasn't singing the Super Mario Brothers theme! He was singing the theme to Super Mario Brothers 2! Geez, that's been bugging me for days. Good for you if you already figured that out!
two can play the game
The industry, it burns! (My industry, I mean, the industriousness of me.)

from stonedtodeath:
Name a fandom I'm into/have been into and I will tell you:

1. The first character I fell in love with:
2. The character I never expected to love as much as I do now:
3. The character everyone else loves that I don’t:
4. The character I love that everyone else hates:
5. The character I would shag anytime:
6. The character I'd want to be like:
7. The character I'd slap:
8. A pairing that I love:
9. A pairing that I despise:
10. Favorite character:
11. What are your five favorite things about your fandom?
12. What are your five least favorite things about your fandom?
13. Who are your five favorite characters?
14. Who are your five least favorite characters?
15. What are your five favorite pairings?
16. What are your five least favorite pairings?
17. Which character are you most like?
18. What is your deep, dark fandom secret?

Also, if you feel that way, tell me why Hillary and not Obama, because my mom had me read this over Christmas, and I just can't shake it. My therapist says that Obama's "Muslim thing" freaks her out a little bit; when asked to explain herself, she couldn't. o.O

hot as ice in a betsey johnson

barbarism is vastly underrated
I recently watched the American Playhouse production of Sunday in the Park with George, which won a bevy of Tony Awards when it came out. Sondheim is my favorite - how can you trust someone who doesn't like Sondheim? - but this musical was a difficult one for me to parse. While watching, I suspected that Sunday in the Park with George was written after Sweeney Todd and before Into The Woods, because the complexity of the musical dialogue was on par with the former, but the patterns of the songs and interactions felt like a precursor to the latter. (Wikipedia confirmed my suspicion, and then I patted myself heartily on the back. I also congratulated myself for recognizing Cinderella's Prince/the Wolf and Jim Dial from Murphy Brown.) I don't know. I could feel, at the time, what Sondheim was trying to do with that story, but it felt so insular. The strongest moments of connection I felt were, unsurprisingly, when Bernadette Peters was singing her earnest little heart out. Even a narrow, pointillistic narrative about legacy can make me feel something, if Bernadette Peters is involved. The woman's going to be 60 in February, and she still looks like this. ♥_♥

I just added a bunch of feeds to my friendslist; there's a preset filter for syndicated feeds, it's like a wonderful little built-in time waster! Any suggestions for great feeds or blogs to add? Here are the ones I already have: bestweekever, boingwonder, consumeristfull, crazydaysnnites, daily_kos, defamer, falloutboynews, gawker, hascheezburger, i_am_fashion, idolatorfeed, moby_journal, new_yorker_mag, nohartandsole, pitchfork, popapocalypse, stereogumrss, tonconrad, traviesblog, whedonesque, wilwheaton, xkcd_rss, youtube_blog.

I cry out in the darkness: who besides joyfulseeker, stonedtodeath, Ferris Bueller and myself wants a bandslash Heralds of Valdemar au?
why it's almost like being in love
I just had my first cigarette since 12:20am on January 1st! This two-a-day thing is going to be cake. I don't know if I have any heavy, daily smokers on my friendslist, but if I do, let me heartily recommend my quitting plan to you, because 1) boo and 2) yah. I'm not making New Year's resolutions! I'll keep quitting smoking slowly and I'll keep trying to eat better and I'll keep trying to cope with stress. It'll be much like 2007, but with less bothersome thoughts and feelings. Yeah, less of that, and more positive thoughts and feelings, more trust in myself, more happiness, for me and everyone else, even you.

New Years and the first week of 2008 were low-key, relaxing and great. Want to hear about it? Here it goes!Collapse )

In other news, welcome back to 2000, where I've been mainlining a_karls's DVDs of Roswell and finding mid-second season to be adorable perfection. I know it's been, like, a decade, but if anyone has any old Roswell recs hanging out in their bookmarks, I'd take them with glad hands. I like Maria the best! And Kyle the sullen Buddhist! And, um, Michael!

Fannishly, hmm. I haven't been online much, but I caught the tail end of Dear-Mr.-Urie-Gate - haha! Ha! Hahaha! and of course Patrick's Law and Order, geeeeeeez. And I keep checking Panic's website, like maybe they're going to tease another song. When's that single coming out? When are Honda Civic announcements being made? Are they going to cancel the Oscars? Does Ryan Ross dress up every year for his Oscar party? If they cancel the Oscars, will he still dress up and watch a marathon of Best Pictures with a joint in a Chanel cigarette holder that Joe buys him?
neighborly day in this beautywood
I want to say such a heartfelt thank you to everyone who sent me a holiday card. I'm still at work, so I don't have your names handy, but every single one brought a smile to my face. And the heartfeltiest of heartfelt thank yous to fuskeez for the lovely Festival of Lights candle that is now sitting on my nightstand, and clumsygyrl, who sent me the audiobook of America: The Book, as read by the cast of the Daily Show. Fi, that's so amazingly thoughtful of you, I can't even believe it. I've just finished The Golden Compass, and I don't get another download until January, and your gift is a godsend to my miserable commute. Thank you so, so much, my dear. ♥

I've been playing Rock Band with my boss's friends while I wait for Sara's flight to get in. I continue to kick some ass on the drums, and I did pretty well on the guitar and singing. I am a rock band unto myself, is what I seem to be saying.

Fannishly, here's what I've been wondering the last few days:

The cruelest cut (greatest love?) of all - one of them's going to sing Whitney Houston's ENTIRE CATALOG! Who would you like to hear sing "I Will Always Love You," "How Will I Know?", "Your Love Is My Love" and so much more?

Patrick Stump
Brendon Urie

But this is the Whitney Houston song I REALLY want Patrick to sing!

And this is the Whitney Houston song I really want BRENDON to sing!

And if Gerard was to sing any Whitney Houston song?

And neglected Miss Greta!


A man said to the universe:
"Sir, I exist!"
"However," replied the universe,
"The fact has not created in me
A sense of obligation."

- Stephen Crane

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